Cupid Doesn't Lie

This isn't really me... i mean, after what i've been through,my guard should be so high up over my head.

lemme start from the beginnig. i had a 10 month relationship back when i was in highschool with a guy who i'll call leo (i'm making up names here). he broke up with me before midterms in senior year for whatever reasons he had and i was very sad... took me about a half a year to get over it (since leo kept calling me and teling me he missed me and loved me and vice versa). then after i finally got over it i started talking to a guy i'll call aries. we fell in love after a while of talking. over my winter break i tried to see him alot (since college students hava a whole month off), but he kept neglecting me. i got over that too, right around the time i got back to school.

now this is the present: i met this fine young man whom i'll call saj. (u guys can guess i'm using zodiac to differenciate). saj basically swept me off my feet without knowing. this is what i'm tryin to explain as "not me". I met him at a talent show after party in another school close by about almost a month ago. it was one of those things where u give 'em ur number but dnt expect for them to call u... yea.. he called :)

we chilled weekend after weekend after weekend and the more i got to know him the more i grew to like him. the title of this entry was chosen because of the day i REALLY lost my composure... valntines day.

there was an auction at my school and he came to watch wit me and to spend the weekend. SAJ GOT ME A ROSE! i was completely surprised... swept off my feet for the rest of the night... and for him to do that on valentines makes me feel like cupid hit me.

idk what's wrong with me, cuz i dnt act like this! saj got me listenin to more R&B than i usually do (and i LOVE my R&B). and while i'm listening, i'm thinking about which part of the song relates to him in whatever way possible from "Red Light Special" by TLC to "I Care For You" by Aaliyah...

i wanna try with him and work stuff out, but i guess he's not ready. i'm currently going thru stuff with leo and aries as well... leo wants to talk to me now and i guess aries is done neglecting me... but i'm tryinna be happy and they're comin at me at the same time, even though they dnt know eachother. WOW right?

but, back to saj... we had a conversaton today about our feelings... aparently they're mutual... that made me smile. i just need to be patient. but i want him to give us a try like the song "Cupid" by 112 says, "u wont kno unless u give it a try." we'll see what happens.

Until next time...